This is dedicated to my grand children...

It seems that too many people I know, including myself,

are being affected by this scourge. Adult children who alienate the grand children. Oh it happens a lot with mothers and fathers... but I want to focus on us grand parents.

How do you mourn someone who is very much alive?

I personally love the children that I gave birth to, but I definitely picked the wrong mate/husband. This mate and I broke up and he was able to have visitation every other weekend. I always believed in the "father" being in their life. I now know that just because someone is a biological parent does not mean that they are good for that child. Emotional manipulation is a common character that low energy deceptive creatures, that look like humans, all share. These creatures ain't shit.

I find that I have a hard time going through stores with children's sections in them. I used to always go and buy what my grands needed. At that point in my life I was/am able to purchase good products. I had to really stay within a much smaller budget, as I was raising my children, but being retired, I'm covered and am able to work at home being a transcriptionist. I didn't just buy water proof boots, but insulated/water proof and excellent brand. I bought coats, car seats, toys, tablets, etc. so my grand wouldn't be cold, wet or damp during winter weather.

I would invite them over for a picnic on the blanket covered floor with all kinds of goodies and games. I was teaching them how to cook and how to pray. I do photography so of course I captured many pictures/memories.

The children were being held from me starting with a threat! If I didn't do so and so I couldn't see the kids. The final and last time I saw them it was a very disturbing scene. There are 2 baby daddies. I saw something totally inappropriate being done by one of the fathers to my grand child who was not biologically his. I put them on blast! I warned that I was going to tell the biological father what the other "dad" was doing and that my daughter was allowing it!

Well, I told.....and all hell broke loose!

So as "My Punishment" I am not and have not been allowed to see my grand kids for 3 years now.

I didn't even know what was going on...and had to find out about it on You Tube. The video is still posted to this day! I was lied about on many different things! All of this to cover what I "discovered".

I cried and cried for 2 years everyday...missing my grands and still not even understanding what has happened.

I gave birth to a daughter (born breach)...raised her...put her through college...supported her in all of the parent/teacher meetings, graduations, etc. Her father did none of these things but did stand her up so many times that I always kept a back up plan just in case he didn't show through.

So it's like, I spent about 25 years of my life to raise this person. She accomplished awards for speaking several languages and she wrote a small book. She basically told me (over the phone) that yeah I raised her but she does not need me or my help anymore. So I spent 25+ years of my life for nothing? I don't know this person anymore. I have memories of the times she was in my life.

How do you mourn someone who is very much alive?

Her father (who I will refer to as "Biological") only made things harder and harder for me. Increasingly combative and when we broke up I was terrifically relieved and at peace! He was having an affair before we split. He pulled out a shot gun during an argument! I got a restraining order! Thank God!!!

I never fought for that marriage! I was very glad he was out!

I later found out that Biological knew at times that she was playing hooky from school, but they kept it a "secret" from me because they knew I wouldn't go for that! There were other discoveries unmasked later.

So I don't see my grand kids but "Biological" knows where they are...and he's been bragging to other family members about it. (this is such a sorry ass person I thought was a human).

Not everyone you see is a Human! Some are NOT...

The psychiatric community has various titles to mental conditions...BUT a lot of these conditions are straight up demonic! Not everything is solved with a pill or medication.

So as therapy I take the money I could have spent on the grands and take myself on trips. No more burnt toast. (we'll talk about Burnt Toast next time).

To be continued....

Well this is all for today. I'll be back to continue this saga. I'm going swimming at the gym to practice with my snorkeling gear. Life is very precious! Be selfish and do something special for yourself.

One Love, PEACE